From: Gerry Armstrong <firstname.lastname@example.org>
Subject: Making Light of Black PR, Part 7, The Admissions
of L. Ron Hubbard.
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Making Light of Black PR, Part 7, The Admissions of L.
This is my contribution to the celebrations and protests on the
occasion of the birthday of L. Ron Hubbard in 2000.
Not all that long ago, someone sent me a copy of the set of writings
which follow, written by L. Ron Hubbard in or about 1947. The
original of these writings was in Hubbard's personal archive which I
assembled and worked with in 1980 and 1981. I provided the writings
to Omar Garrison, a wog ® writer with whom $cientology had contracted
to write Hubbard's "authorized biography." In 1984 I read
them into the record at my trial in $cientology v. Armstrong, Los
Angeles Superior Court, Case No. C 420153. The trial resulted in the
widely cited decision by Judge Paul G. Breckenridge, Jr. wherein he
described Hubbard as a "pathological liar." (URL?)
Omar first called these writings Hubbard's "Affirmations."
after it dawned on him that Hubbard was a stupendous liar, Omar said
he was correcting himself, and thereafter called the writings the
"Admissions." I believe that Omar was right, and that these
are "Affirmations," but more importantly,
I will not now provide anything really of my own analysis or
conclusions about Hubbard's Admissions, because I want every
$cientologist or wog ® who reads them to be free, or with negligible
influence, to think about them for himself. I will comment below, for
legal reasons, on *why* I am posting the Admissions. I have my own
experiences, naturally, with these writings, I have drawn my own
conclusions about them, and I expect I will participate in a
discussion or two they may generate.
I don't know who in this recent period sent me the copy from which I
typed that follows. In any event I would not divulge the identity of
the person because of the clear and senseless threat of attack from
the people who now run $cientology. It is sufficient for legal
purposes to state that the copy I received was not made by me. By the
time the Admissions are posted to the internet, I will have, pursuant
to the wishes of the person who made it, destroyed the copy I
I will also immediately wipe the Admissions from my hard drive. Thus
the people who run $cientology will have less reason or justification
to raid me or break into my house or computer than they have to raid
or break into the house or computer of a million other people.
The Admissions I received are not complete. Perhaps when the kind
person who sent me the copy sees they have been posted he will send
the rest of the writings. My recollection is that the remainder of
the Admissions do not diverge from the substance, direction or tone of
what I'm posting here. Included in the remainder is, I think, a
deeper delve into Hubbard's sexual anxieties or aberrations, following
the same vein he mined in the part I received. What I received, for
example, doesn't include Hubbard's startling admission, "It doesn't
give me displeasure to hear of a virgin being raped. The lot of women
is to be fornicated."
I am posting the Admissions for all of the reasons stated in my
declaration of January 26, 1997, specifically in paragraphs 57 - 65,
which I recently posted to a.r.s.:
From: email@example.com (Gerry Armstrong)
Subject: Making Light of Black PR, Part 2, January 26, 1997 Armstrong
Declaration for RTC v. Ward.
Date: Mon, 06 Mar 2000 08:12:59 GMT
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In that declaration I provided my expert opinion that the exposing or
dissemination of $cientology's "sacred scriptures," which
dissemination the organization prohibits, suppresses and punishes by
commercial, secular copyright and trademark law and millions upon
millions of simoleons to lawyer scumbags, is justified by the greater
principle of religious freedom. I stated that publication of
$cientology's "secret scriptures" is in my opinion
protected religious expression.
Hubbard's Admissions are quite obviously a part of $cientology's
"scriptures. On the holiness scale ®, they are holier than the
holiest of the Advanced Technology scriptures, because the people who
run $cientology won't show them to $cientologists even if they have a
half million dollars to pay and agree to the organization implant.
Although the Admissions are the holiest of $cientology's scriptures,
the Miscavige regime withholds them for the identical commercial,
secular, base and criminal reasons they withhold the "OT"
the "NOT$," and the whereabouts of Xenu's mountain cave.
$cientology has set no prerequisites or punishments that I'm aware of
for $cientologists reading Hubbard's Admissions, and for that at least
I'm grateful. I believe that the Admissions should be read by every
$cientologist at whatever point they find themselves on the bridge.
$cientologists won't get pneumonia. They might have some good
cognitions. ® They might become free.
The Admissions were very important to me in my getting free of the web
of lies Hubbard and $cientology had spun, and getting free of their
domination and suppression. I am posting these writings now with the
prayer that they help to free other $cientologists from Hubbard's and
Miscavige's lies, domination and suppression. If Hubbard has been
humbled and regained his willfully lost humanity, I know he too would
want every $cientologist to read all his Admissions.
Obviously I don't have any desire to profit monetarily by posting
Hubbard's unpublished Admissions. My desire is that these writings
help everyone, $cientologist and wog ®, to make informed and better
choices about L. Ron Hubbard and $cientology. I was not freed by
being a $cientologist, doing $cientology, and having all the
experiences, cognitions and trappings of $cientology. I was freed by
reading what $cientologists don't get to read, by being what no
$cientologist would be, a wog ®, by doing what no $cientologist would
do, and having my own experiences, cognitions and stuff. I share
Hubbard's Admissions with everyone because God Who created knowledge
does not want anyone to be kept ignorant.
I stated in the Jan 26, 1997 declaration that the people $cientology
identified as violating the organization's copyrights and sued - Grady
Ward, Lawrence Wollersheim, Keith Henson, Dennis Erlich, Arnie Lerma,
Bob Penny -- were in general agreement that $cientology is not a
sincere, and hence real, religion, but is a criminal cult engaged in
harmful practices. I also stated that if these people are correct in
their assessment, and if they did expose or publish $cientology's
"secret" documents, they were and are completely justified in
Repeating what I wrote in the Jan 26, 1997 declaration, "In my
opinion this kind of expression is an expected, logical response to
Scientology's efforts to corrupt the meaning of religion in order to
"sanctify" its antisocial and dangerous mind set and criminal
activities. It is expression which cannot legally be prohibited or
punished by judicial process." I agree completely that $cientology,
that is, $cientology as directed by David Miscavige and his regime, is
not a sincere, real religion, but a criminal cult engaged in harmful
I could, quite clearly, have posted the Admissions anonymously. I
gave it serious consideration, because while I believe these writings,
for the peace and health and spirit of so many people, should be
posted immediately, I wanted to do what be effective and not the
stupid end of martyrdom. I decided against anonymity, however, for a
number of reasons. I believe that by U.$., Canadian and international
law, and common sense, I am permitted to publish these writings
openly. I believe that by common decency, by human and civil rights
codes, by being a Prophet to $cientologists (Pt$), and by God Himself,
I am urged, in fact directed, to post these writings and post them
I am also posting the Admissions openly to confirm their authenticity.
The copy I received was not clear in places, and it is now gone. All
words, spellings, punctuation and notations are Hubbard's, except for
brackets  which are mine. I pray that DM makes the complete
original of the Admissions available for $cientologists around the
world. Indeed I pray that he reveals every hidden piece of Hubbard's
writings, and yes, even his own secret documents, to all
$cientologists and interested wogs ®. Robert Vaughn Young and Stacy
Brooks at least have read the Admissions and will be able to confirm
that what follows here is, within reasonable parameters, authentic. I
was very careful, but if there are any errors at all in what I have
posted of the Hubbard Admissions, I urge DM to have them corrected.
Posting the Admissions, I believe, lessens the threat of harm or
murder to silence me, but it ups the revenge factor ®. The person who
sent me the copy emphatically doesn't want any trouble. Good Lord, I
don't want any trouble, and I'm the guy who typed this copy and will
now post it using my own name to a.r.s. The person who sent the copy
certainly knew that I would recognize the writings and I'd like to
think wanted me to do with them what I've done and what the person was
in no position to do. I have not shown what I'm posting to anyone, but
I will now email it to certain people when I post it.
I am aware that DM will almost certainly attack me. To justify his and
$cientology's continuing attack, as Hubbard did for his continuing
attacks while he lived, they made attack their organizational policy
of choice, or scripture of choice I suppose I should say.
Nevertheless, perhaps this is a good time for Miscavige to learn that
non-attack is the best policy.
I really think the $cientologists would be silly to sue me. Then
again I've thought they're silly for years and years and that hasn't
deterred them. But perhaps in this instance they can learn to not do
another silly thing. I'm giving $cientology and $cientologists
another golden opportunity to stop being silly. It's God actually Who
gives everyone opportunities to stop being silly. I'm but a simple
messenger, with staggering inabilities, and at times admittedly silly.
Miscavige's $cientology is willfully silly. Suppression is no
accident, it is willful. I am but a prophet who brings $cientologists
opportunities to be healed of their willfulness, silliness and
I am aware that the posting of the Admissions makes a godsent legal
test case. If I am guided by God, what I have done not being unsafe
or immoral, my post is protected expression because it cannot be
denied. Without including God, it is clear that $cientology,
$cientologists and their agents (for there are wogs ® who are
$cientology's agents) are themselves responsible for my actions. What
they have done to silence me, to 8-C my body from place to place, to
invalidate me, to black PR me, to threaten me, to destroy me, has
either been a source of my state of mind, and hence my actions, or God
has. (I think it can be agreed that the mind directs actions, rather
than actions directing the mind.)
If God is directing my actions, how could I do anything else? If DM
and his $cientology organization have affected my mind, they bear
responsibility for the act about which they might complain. In truth
both things are true. God is in control, and DM and $cientology have
unclean hands. It is observable throughout history that God sends
prophets, and even the unprophetable, to deal with tyrants and regimes
whose hands are unclean.
A case can be made that my posting Hubbard's Admissions is a fair and
appropriate response to DM's dissemination and internet posting of my
writing known as the "pig dream." Obviously I held the
that unpublished work. The pig dream was a glimpse in an extremely
literary form into the mind of Gerry Armstrong. The Admissions are a
glimpse in a different literary form into the mind of L. Ron Hubbard.
I certainly don't argue that Hubbard's Admissions are no more
important or vital than my pig dream. There is, after all, nobody
paying huge sums of money and spending their lives working for
Armstrongology. On the other hand, Hubbard's dead. DM had his agents
post the pig dream to hurt me. I'm posting Hubbard's Admissions to set
$cientologists free. I'll copyright my portion of this post, and
hereby give my permission for it to be copied and distributed.
For fair use purposes, the context for the post containing
theAdmissions is the global controversy about Hubbard, about
$cientology's antecedents, about Hubbard's psyche, his honesty or
dishonesty, his mental technology, "Excalibur," his promises,
aims, his history, his theology, his hypnotism, his navy record, his
non-navy record, and other clearly controversial Hubbard-connected
conumdrums. The context is the controversy we see every day on a.r.s.
and in media around the world.
The period when Hubbard made these Admissions involved John W.
Parsons, Sara Northrup, his family, magick, his "development"
"Dianetics" leading to the publication of the book that would
famous and lead on to $cientology. Funnily, Hubbard and $cientology
claim that he was a "Special Officer" for the LAPD in this
that he was working for the U$ Navy to break up the Parsons "black
magic ring." There is a VA record showing that around the time of
Admissions Hubbard sought psychiatric help.
Just one last thought, which I'll repeat from my Jan 26, 1997
declaration, and which I pray that DM and his $cientologists take to
heart. Although man may attempt to keep God out of his other realms,
he surely cannot keep God out of religion, because in this world it is
His Realm. That's sort of the message every prophet brings.
I hope Hubbard's Admissions are a blessing and a help to all.
© 2000 Gerry Armstrong
THE ADMISSIONS OF L. RON HUBBARD
The purpose of this experiment is to re-establish the
ambition, willpower, desire to survive, the talent and confidence of
To accomplish the above the following fears must be removed
Fear that I have written myself out by writing junk. I built certain
psychoses in myself while living with my former wife as a means to
protect my writing. I affirmed that my writing was hard work and took
much labor. This was a lie. I was always anxious about people's
opinion of me and was afraid I would bore them. This injected anxiety
and careless speed into my work. I must be convinced that I can write
skillfully and well, that I have no phobias about writing and no fears
of it. People criticized my work bitterly at times. I must be
convinced that such people were fools. I must be convinced that I can
write far better than ever before, that a million people at least
would be happy to see my stories. I must be convinced that I have
succeeded in writing and with ease will regain my popularity, which
actually was not small. I must also be convinced that I dictate
stories to a dictaphone with ease.
I must be told that my memory is strong and reliable, that I can
remember all I have ever read or studied, that no illness or medicine
has affected mind or memory.
(b) My service record was not too glorious. I must be convinced that I
suffer no reaction from any minor disciplinary action, that all such
were minor. My service was honorable, my initiative and ability high.
I have nothing to fear from friends about my service. I can forget
such things as Admiral Braystead. Such people are unworthy of my
(c) I can have no doubts of my psychic powers. My magical ability is
high and clear. I earned my titles and command.
(d) Any distaste I may have for Jack Parsons originated in a psychic
experiment. Such distaste is foolish. He is my friend and
(e) Sexual feeling has been depressed by several things amounting to a
major impasse. To cure ulcers of the stomach I was given testosterone
and stilbesterol. These reduced my libido to nothing. While taking
these drugs I fell in love with Sara. She can be most exciting
sexually to me. Because of drugs as above and a hangover from my
ex-wife Polly, I sometimes am unexcited by anything sexual. This
My wife left me while I was in a hospital with ulcers. Polly was quite
cruel. She was never a woman for me. She was under-sexed and had bad
sexual habits such as self-laceration done in private. She was no mate
for me and yet I retained much affection for her. It was a terrible
blow when she left me for I was ill and without prospects. I know, by
this, she actually wanted no more than my ability to support her. This
has had an effect of impotency upon me, has badly reduced my ego.
Polly was very bad for me sexually. Because of her coldness
physically, the falsity of her pretensions, I believed myself a near
eunuch between 1933 and 1936 or ? when I found I was attractive to
other women. I had many affairs. But my failure to please Polly made
me always pay so much attention to my momentary mate that I derived
small pleasure myself. This was an anxiety neurosis which cut down my
In 1938-39 I met a girl in New York, Helen, who pleased me very much
physically. I loved her and she me. The affair would have lasted had
not Polly found out. Polly made things so miserable that I finally
detested her and became detested by Helen, who two-timed me on my
return to New York in 1941. This also reduced my libido. I have had
Helen since but no longer want her. She does not excite me and I do
not love her.
In 1942 - December 17th or thereabouts - while training in Miami,
Florida, I met a girl named Ginger who excited me. She was a very
loose person but pretended a great love for me. From her I received an
infection of gonnohorea (sp?). I was terrified by it, the consequences
of being discovered by my wife, the navy, my friends. I went to a
private doctor who treated me with sulfa-thiazole and so forth. I
thought I was cured but on a plane headed to Portland, Ore. I found I
was not. I took to dosing myself with sulfa in such quantities that I
was afraid I had affected my brain. My wife came to Portland. I took
what precautions I could. I think actually that the disease was
utterly cured very early. This fear further depressed my libido. My
wife disliked the act anyway, I believe, even after she had a
hysterectomy in 1938. (She was always terrified of childbirth but
conceived despite all precautions seven times in five years resulting
in five abortions and two children. I am quite fond of my children but
my wife always tried to convince me that I hated them.)
I carried this fear of the disease to sea with me. I was reprimanded
in San Diego in mid-43 for firing on the Mexican coast and was removed
from command of my ship. This on top of having sunk two Jap subs
without credit, the way my crew lied for me at the Court of Inquiry,
the insults of the High Command, all combined to put me in the
hospital with ulcers.
I returned to sea as navigator of a large ship and
selected for the Military Government School at Princeton whither I
went in 1944-45 for three months. During my Princeton sojourn I was
very tired and harrassed (sp?) and spent week-ends with a writer
friend in Philadelphia. He almost forced me to sleep with his wife.
Meanwhile I had a affair with a woman named Ferne. Somehow, perhaps
because I had constantly wet feet and no sleep at Princeton, I
contracted a staphloceus infection. I mistook it for gonnhorea and
until I arrived at Monterey, believed my old illness had returned. I
consulted a doctor there who reassured me. This affair again depressed
my libido. The staphloceus infection has not entirely vanished,
appearing as rheumatism which only small doses of stilbestrol will
remove. The hormone further reduces my libido and I am nearly
Sara, my sweetheart, is young, beautiful, desirable. We are very gay
companions. I please her physically until she weeps about any
separation. I want her always. But I am 13 years older than she. She
is heavily sexed. My libido is so low I hardly admire her naked.
I mean to be constant to her. I love her very much. But to live with
her I must regain my sexual powers, my stimulus.
I must cease to take hormones. I must rebuild my feeling of excitement
about things sexual.
I have a very bad masturbatory history. I was taught when I was 11
and, despite guilt, fear of insanity, etc. etc. I persisted. At a
physical examination at a Y when I was about 13, the examiner and the
people with him called me out of the line because my testicles hung
low and cautioned me about what would happen if I kept on
masturbating. This "discovery" was a bad shock to me.
I had to be so silent about it that now when a bedspring squeaks I
lose all libido. I eventually found out I would not be insane, or
injure myself but the scars remain.
Polly pretended a hollow passion which disgusted me. But I am
lingeringly fond of her even so. I am also nostalgic about Helen.
By eliminating certain fears by hypnosis, curing my rheumatism and
laying off hormones, I hope to restore my former libido. I must! By
hypnosis I must be convinced as follows:
(a) I can write. I need not think commercially about writing.
(b) My mind is still brilliant. My memory unaffected by drugs or
(c) That masturbation was no sin or crime and did not injure me. That
no sexual practice has ever dulled me.
(d) That things sexual thrill me. That I am now returned to the same
feelings I had at 16 about sex where excitement is concerned. That
naked women and pornography excite me greatly. That Sara excites me
greatly and gives me much pleasure.
(e) That I bear no physical aftermath of disease.
(f) That I do not need to have ulcers any more.
(g) That my eyes (which I used as an excuse to get out of school) are
perfect and do not pain me ever.
(h) That I love in Sara everything I loved in Polly or Helen and that
such love is now transferred to Sara.
(i) That I am fortunate in losing Polly and my parents, for they never
meant well by me.
(j) That I never need be jealous of Sara's past. That she loves me and
is utterly faithful. That she thrills me more than Helen ever did.
(k) That life is beautiful to me. That I want to live. That things
taste and smell and look and feel wonderful to me.
(l) That I wrote a great book in The One Command and that it removed
all my fears even until now, except that my chapters on the mind do
not affect my own mind. That I have will power and great mental
control. That I need not associate anything unless I wish.
(m) That I have only friendship for Jack Parsons.
(n) That I feel no wish for vengeance toward anyone. That I love
people and believe in honor and glory.
(o) That I believe in my gods and spiritual things.
(p) That nothing can halt my ambitions.
(q) That I need not believe the criticism of anyone. That vicious
criticism can be forgotten by me at will.
(r) That I tell the truth and must tell the truth. That all past
errors and lies are forgotten.
(s) That I have started a new, free life. That the arts and beauties
run strong in me and cannot be denied by anyone.
(t) That I am well and that there is no advantage in appearing ill.
(u) That my code is to be all things a "magus" must be, that
those things. That I burn high and bright and will last as a potent
and brilliant force until well after this century has run.
(v) That I am not credulous or absorbent of other people's opinions.
(w) That this hypnosis will not fade, but will increase in power as
(x) That my magical work is powerful and effective.
(y) That nothing can tarnish my love of life, my hours, my love of
Sara. And I have the power of banishing anything which would seek to
do so and that all things will seem wonderful and exciting to me all
the rest of my days.
(y1) That the numbers 7, 25 and 16 are not unlucky or evil for me.
That no number is any different in its influence upon me than any
other number. That the 7th, 16th and 25th are not unlucky or
unfortunate days of the month for me. I have no bad connotations with
(z) That I need not subscribe to any moral code of sex anywhere. That
I am constant to Sara. I have no terrors of sex or sexual conduct.
Only pleasure and beauty are contained in it. That I may please myself
with the act or be pleased with sexual things. That the sexual matters
taught me by Flavia do not apply. My chastity lies in loving Sara.
(a1) That I will not forget these things but will enjoin them with all
related ideas as more powerful than any other ideas in my head.
(b1) That all ideas to destroy myself are false, for I love life and I
am a free and exuberant spirit in it.
(c1) That I cannot associate any of my lacking libido with Sara. The
blame lies elsewhere. Sara has enormous powers to thrill me. Hormones
and fears, now gone, were at fault.
(d1) Sexually I am as I was at 16, without any of the fears, with all
of the powers, with all the knowledge I now possess turned to
(d1) That I see and hear Raon clearly.
(e) That anything which impedes my zest for living is small and puny
and will dwindle before the power of these statements. That nothing in
me which is evil can have heard these statements and commands without
(f1) That I am not bad to look upon. That my posture is straight and
excellent. That Sara likes my looks.
(g1) That my endurance in any climate is wonderful and any "
otherwise is completely false.
(h1) That I am not susceptible to colds.
(i1) That I believe in myself and am poised and dignified whenever I
wish to be.
(j1) That I am not worn out in any way and never will be. That life is
ever new, that I am strong.
(k1) That Sara is always beautiful to me.
(l1) That these words and commands are like fire and will sear
themselves into every corner of my being, making me happy and well and
Note Much of the above may seem cryptic but if paraphrased as
rendered will be enormously effective.
You are asleep. You are not accountable for anything you say now. No
one will think any less of you. People want to help you.
In this one lesson you are going to learn several things. The first is
the use of your beautiful new Soundscriber.
The instrument is your aide and companion. It makes it possible for
you to write ten times the stories you did before.
You have no urge to talk about your navy life. You do not like to talk
of it. You never illustrate your point with bogus stories. It is not
necessary for you to lie to be amusing and witty.
You like to have your intimate friends approve of and love you for
what you are. This desire to be loved does not amount to a psychosis,
it is simply there and you enjoy their love.
You can sing beautifully. Your voice can imitate any singer. Your
tones are round and true. You have no superstitions about singing at
any time. Your oratory is magnificent. Your voice tones perfect, your
choice of words marvelous, your logic unassailable.
Your psychology is good. You worked to darken your own children. This
failure, with them, was only apparent. The evident lack of
effectiveness was "ordered." The same psychology works
everyone else. You use it with great confidence.
Nothing can intervene between you and your Guardian. She cannot be
displaced because she is too powerful. She does not control you. She
advises you. You may or may not take the advice. You are an adept and
have a wonderful and brilliant mind of your own.
Everything great and beautiful that ever happened to you or that you
know is available to your conscious will to remember. You can only
forget by conscious will or at command of your own voice.
You recognize the evil or bad import of things that are evil and bad
for you but their evilness cannot affect you or penetrate through your
glowing and strong aura. You are light and you are good. You have the
Wisdom of all and never doubt your wisdom.
You have magnificent power but you are humble and calm and patient in
that power. For you control all forces under you as you wish. The
strength of your Guardian aids you always and can never depart or be
repelled. Your faith in her and in God is unswerveable, blind,
powerful and you never, never doubt their good intent toward you. They
work with you. You help them exert their plans. They have faith
unbounded in you.
You will never forget these incantations. They are holy and are now
become an integral part of your nature. You enter the greatest phase
yet of work and devotion and power and have perfect control without
Men's chains fall from you. Your head is high. Your back is straight.
You can experience no evil or illness. You are wholly protected. You
cannot guide yourself wrong for you are guided as a crown prince.
Material things are yours for the asking. Men
Elemental spirits are your slaves. You are power among powers, light
in the darkness, beauty in all.
You are not sleepy or tired ever. You do not sleep unless you will it
consciously. Sleep to you is a deep trance. Nothing can touch you in
that trance because it would not dare. Your Guardian alone can talk to
you as you sleep but she may not hypnotize you. Only you can hypnotize
You never wonder about how you write, you never distrust your ideas or
ability. You merely write and write wonderfully well. You like to copy
your own material and work with it until it is perfect. But it is
usually perfect the first time.
The desires of other people have no hypnotic effect upon you. You are
considerate of their desires because you are powerful. But you need
never be dissuaded by their wishes about anything.
Nothing, no one opposes your writing. Everyone is anxious that you
write. You do not need certain conditions to write. You are so strong
you can write anywhere on anything at any time. You can carry on a
wild social life and still write one hundred thousand words a month or
more. Your brain is so fixed that you can write at any time, anywhere.
The mere beginning of writing is sufficient to put you in a happy
mood, any high mood. Writing does not tire you. You said writing was
hard work but that you knew was a lie. You know now it is easy, very
easy. Writing puts you into an ecstatic state of mind almost as high
as intercourse. You love to write. The Navy had no influence upon your
writing. The Navy never stopped you writing. On the 422 what you wrote
were not stories. You love to write. Your writing has a deep hypnotic
effect on people and they are always pleased with what you write.
Having a market is immaterial.
You will make fortunes in writing. Any book you care to write now will
sell high and well. You can dictate books. Words flow from you in a
beautiful steady stream. Anything which goes through your fingers can
come through your mouth.
A dictaphone fills you with a desire to talk.
You talk easily to a dictaphone and the copy is excellent. The copyist
has no effect upon your work. You don't care what she reads.
Your psychology is
and true and wonderful. It hypnotizes
people. It predicts their emotions, for you are their ruler.
You don't have to
about all this. You know too well it is true.
You never have to argue, all you need to do is sit back with a calm,
kind smile and people will come to you with their opinions. You need
never talk to fill silences in a group. You are an arbiter, a kindly
one. You do not have to talk. But when you do talk you are amusing,
witty, so personable no one can resist your charm. If they do not
reply, it is because they are afraid of you.
Your health is
You need but 6 hours sleep. Your eyes are
You need never be a cripple. You have never
done anything for which you need feel guilty. You never need punish
yourself about anything. You are in wonderful glowing health. You
never have accidents because you are prudent and poised.
You will live to
years old, both because you are calm and
because of modern discoveries to be made in your lifetime.
You will always
Your weight is 180 lbs. And you will
attain and hold that weight.
Your hair will
its present color. It will be thick and
beautiful all your life. Hair will grow out to replace what you have
Your body organs
perfect harmony. Your Guardian keeps you in
celestial time. Your organs work well, all of them. You grow stronger
each day. No drug or medicine affects your mind more than a few hours.
You can consciously stop pain.
You have no doubts
God. You never speculate about him. You are
assured that whatever you do is right in his eyes. Your faith is so
strong you could move mountains. You have deep trust and faith in God
and have no fear of what he may do to you and your friends. He will
never punish you. Some day you will merge with him and become part of
the All when his bidding you have finished in these lives.
You never speak
another because you are too powerful and may
You are not a coward.
fighting had no bearing on your courage.
curse them. You love everyone. Even when you use force on people, you
cannot hate them. You have no hate or jealousy in you. You are not in
contest with anyone. God and your Guardian and your own power bring
destruction on those who would injure you. But you never speak of this
for you are kind. A sphere of light, invisible to others, surrounds
you as a protecting globe. All forces bounce away from you off this.
You were ill when you were fought before. You did not understand the
rules. You can whip anyone now and have no physical fear of hand to
hand fighting. They who fought you before were knaves and fools. You
would be merciless to them now. Nothing can stand up to your fighting
now. You are strong and wonderful in combat. You never know fear or
defeat. You refrain from fighting because you are too powerful.
You are rich in
You are therefore dangerous beyond the claws
of tigers. You never need speak of your dangerousness. Everyone knows
you are and it scares them when you mention it. You are kind and
Your eyes are
better. They became bad when you
used them as an excuse to escape the naval academy. You have no reason
to keep them bad and now they can get well and they will become
eventually starting now as keen as an eagle's with clear whites and
green pupils. Sunlight does not affect them. Lack of sleep does not
used as an excuse to keep the Navy from
punishing you. You are free of the Navy. You have no further reason to
have a weak stomach. Your ulcers are all well and never bother you.
You can eat anything.
Your hip is a
have a sound hip. It never hurts. Your
shoulder never hurts.
Your foot was an
The injury is no longer needed. It is well.
You have perfect and lovely feet.
Your sinus trouble
It is not dangerous. It will vanish. A
common cold amuses you. You are protected from further illness. Your
cat fever has vanished forever and will never return.
You do not have
When you tell people you are ill it has no
effect upon your health. In the Veterans examination you will tell
them how sick you are. You will look sick when you take it. You will
return to health one hour after the examination and laugh at them.
No matter what
may tell others they have no physical effect
on you of any kind. You never injure your health by saying it is bad.
You cannot lie to yourself. Disgust not sympathy is generated in
others by bad health. Injuries are not romantic. They are disgusting
in you. You are a child of God. You are perfect. Health is a passport
to friends. Women are not impressed by your injuries. Clear exuberant
good health is your passport to their hearts. Adventure heroes may
sound romantic when injured but it is really a bad comment on their
expertness. The truly great adventurer is so expert he is never
injured by anything. Dragging a wing is not romantic, it is silly. You
will always be in wonderful health and well-being.
There is no veil
you and the world. You sense touch, color,
music, poetry much better than anyone else. You never mention this
superiority. But you show them the beauties of the world. You are not
old or worn. You are young and experience is fresh and exciting. It
will always be. Your brain is clear as a gong. No pressure sits on it
or blinds you. Sulfa never affected it. Your speech is perfect. You
are thrilled by music. You can engender any mood. You are an excellent
judge of painting and sculpture and are thrilled by it in any one of
its thousand moods.
You can enter or
any mood at will. You can engender any mood.
You can write in any mood at will and with great honesty.
You start your
You need no excuses, no crutches. You need
no apologies about what you have done or been. Your approach to work
is wonderfully clear and fresh. No experience can daunt you. You can
never be disappointed or morose for you know life for what it is and
therefore are shielded against its suffering. You have suffered much
and you are deep in understanding. But now you enter upon a long, long
period of solemn joy.
What people think
does not matter. You know when you are right.
Women especially love you and you fear no man.
with your own hormones. Your glands already
make plenty of needed testosterone and by adding to that store you
make yourself very thrilling and sexy. Testosterone increases your
sexual interest and activity. It makes erections easier and harder and
makes your own joy more intense. Stilbesterol in 5 mg doses makes you
thrill more to music and color and makes you kinder. You have no fear
of what any woman may think of your bed conduct. You know you are a
master. You know they will be thrilled. You can come many times
without weariness. The act does not reduce your vitality or brain
power at all. You can come several times and still write. Intercourse
does not hurt your chest or make you sore. Your arms are strong and do
not ache in the act. Your own pleasure is not dependent on the
woman's. You are interested only in your own sexual pleasure. If she
gets any that is all right but not vital. Many women are not capable
of pleasure in sex and anything adverse they say or do has no effect
whatever upon your pleasure. Their bodies thrill you. If they repel
you, it merely means they themselves are too frigid or prudish to be
bothered with. They are unimportant in bed except as they thrill you.
Your sexual power is magnificent and they know it. If they are afraid
of it, that is their loss. You are not affected by it.
You have no fear
conceive. What if they do? You do not care.
Pour it into them and let fate decide.
the more you enjoy it because it means their
mucous is running madly with pleasure.
There is nothing
in the sex act. Nothing any woman may say can
change your opinion. You are a master. You are as sensitive and sexy
as Pan. Lord help women when you begin to fondle them. You are master
of their bodies, master of their souls as you may consciously wish.
You have no karma to pay for these acts. You cannot now accumulate
karma for you are a master adept. Your voice is low and compelling to
them. Singing to them, for you sing like a master, destroys their will
to resist. You obey the conventions, you commit no crimes because you
need not. You can be intelligently aware of their morals and the laws
of the land and fit your campaign expertly within them.
Jack is also an
You love and respect him as a friend. He cannot
take offense at what you do. You will not wrong him because you love
The most thrilling
in your life is your love and consciousness
of your Guardian. She materializes for you. You have no doubts of her.
She is real. She is always with you. You love her very much. You trust
her. You see and hear her. She is not your master. You have a mighty
spiritual will of your own. She is an advisor and as such is respected
by you. She is wise and worthy and never changes shape. Your faith in
her as in God is blind and unshaken ever.
She is interested
and amused by you. She does not criticize
you. She does not frown on your sexual acts but advises you on better
That she is with
does not mean that she sees you as
indecent ever. You cannot offend her. You cannot repel her. You are
too good. You respect her and you love her and appreciate her advice.
You are good always because you want her to feel good. This does not
apply to sex. She has never and will never forbid you pleasures. She
will never censure you. She is lovely and beautiful and radiant and
part of your life. You can see her consciously whenever you wish. You
are never startled by her because you are not afraid of her. You are
partly in her plane, she partly in yours as you wish to see her. She
has copper red hair, long braids, a lovely Venusian face, a white gown
belted with jade squares. She wears gold slippers. Thus you see her.
You can read with
anything she cares to show you. You can talk
with her and audibly hear her voice above all others.
You and she are
to permit any interference. You can work
alone whenever you wish because she protects you. You and she are
friends. You both have a higher master. She can teach you much. You
love her. But she does not own your will, cannot affect your will and
you are powerful enough to depend upon yourself. You do not consign
will to her, ever. She advises. You do not have to take the advice.
She cannot weaken your will. You have no fears of consequences if you
fail to heed her. You can also be right for you know more of time than
she does. She is wise and beautiful and powerful. Others may not see
her, and you need not look at her or talk to her when others are
around for they might not understand. You can talk to her "in your
mind" when others are near.
You need never be
when material objects or people fail to
move at your unspoken order. You can often control them. Not always.
Leave this to your beloved Guardian.
of all the words you ever heard or read. They
are at your conscious command always. Your authority over words is
absolute. You are a grand master of words and you can do with them as
you will. You know what they mean to others. You know how their
meanings and melodies affect others. Your vocabulary is under your
complete conscious dictatorship. You know what they mean. No other in
the world has a finer vocabulary. You can speak them just as easily as
you write them and in a beautiful style and formation.
You can speak to a
using punctuation symbols, spoken. You
see before you the brilliant colored scene of your story and with any
mood you consciously wish, describe that scene in magnificent prose.
You have no inhibitions against fine writing. You know that is a
meaningless phrase. Overwriting, underwriting these are not true. You
pay no heed to these terms. You have no fears.
You speak and
all the French, Spanish and Japanese you ever
studied and they remain wholly apart from each other and your English.
You cannot forget
It is impossible. You have them at your
You can do
whenever you wish. You do not care what
comes out on the paper when your Guardian dictates. You can hear her
easily and when you want her to write or talk dictation you have only
to consciously will it and the result is written or spoken by yourself
without any intrusions of your own thought. It is entirely automatic.
It does not in the least affect or reduce your spiritual will. You may
or may not believe what she dictates. That is part of your conscious
will and judgment.
Anything you were
about religion as a child you can forget or
recall. It does not affect your present mighty faith.
You are a calm and
being with very fine judgment. You may
collect facts, you need not believe them save as they appear true to
you. You can remember an erroneous fact as an erroneous fact.
You need not
you read. Other writers are often in
error and you have no great respect for their printed words. You can
appreciate their quality without regard to your own. They cannot
change your true self and thoughts. Their jeers in print and their
criticisms have no weight on you. You know what is true. You don't
even have to defend your beliefs. They are too powerful.
Your memory is
and reliable. You can remember perfectly in
one reading or one speaking. Your brain capacity is infinite. You
cannot hold too much consciously in your brain. You could cram ten
billion new facts or scenes or impressions into your brain and
remember them all with ease. You have no mental limit on memory or
learning. You can remember a thing without accepting it as truth. You
accept as truth only those things which you yourself believe after you
consciously examine them. You accept all I say here as absolute fact
however. You will reverance and believe everything here, consciously
and forever. These words sink into your whole being. They remake your
entire life. They are your code, belief, your guiding star.
You will know
you ever knew in any life. You will feel no
guilt or lack in yourself about any of your experiences. You can
recall them all without pain. Your past was what it was. You cannot
change it. But you had the whole right to use or help or hurt people
and you are too powerful now to be more than amused by your folly.
You can tell all
tales you wish. You will remember them,
you do remember them. But you know which ones were lies. You are so
logical you will tell nothing which cannot be believed. But you are
gallant and dashing and need tell no lies at all. You have enough real
experience to make anecdotes forever. Stick to your true adventures.
Tell nothing discreditable but tell them well. Or if you wish, as you
will, tell adventures which happened to others. People accept them
better. You can recall in detail tales of adventure from all you ever
heard or read. You remember easily. You can quote for company or a
book all the adventure poetry you ever read or heard. You can sing all
the songs you ever heard, even once, and sing them well. You have no
fear of forgetting or stumbling. You cannot forget stories, songs,
tunes, skills and at will can call them consciously to mind.
any train of thought from your mind, any
time, any song. You can recall words, speeches, whole books verbatim
at will. You are not a victim of chance thoughts. You are in powerful
and wise conscious control of all your thinking. You are a master
without limits. Your brain has no limits, consciously, unconsciously
or psychically. You can perform any mental trick or stunt consciously
of which you have ever heard. You are in perfect poise, balance and
control of your brain.
You are punctual
worry if you keep people waiting. You are a
master adept and do not exist to serve people. You are kind. But you
are not affected by the desires of others save out of the deep and
graceful courtesy which you know so well and use.
You are honest and
of your honesty. You are too powerful to
You have no fears
being first. Because another comes out with
an idea which you thought up is no cause for your sorrow. You are
merely proud to be able to serve without gain, for your gain is of the
Money will flood
you, for you are wise and able. You have no
phobias about the rich. The rich are only people. You need not be
offended or impressed by them. You can and will own large arms[?] of
your own. You are wiser than the rich. Your money will exist to serve
you. As you spend it, more will flood in for you will spend wisely if
well. You have no fears about money. You will always make it. You do
not care how much you have. Having money gives you a comfortable
feeling. You do not worry if you do not have it. You just make more.
You want to make and spent money. It is not a primary concern with
you, you do it with such ease and have such boundless energy.
You need never
betray any secret God or your Guardian wants
kept. You can be trusted with vast knowledge and never give it away or
use it with express authority. What you know is riches. When you give
away all you know, you are poor. You can give out exactly as much as
God desires people to know. You never try to make an impression with
what you know. You don't care what people think of your mind. So long
as you refrain from telling what you know, vast secrets can be
entrusted to you with safety. You will guard your secrets. You can be
trusted always by everyone.
Vida does not
your mother. She looks like a wood nymph. You
like her. You do not love her to desperation. You are not jealous of
her. She thrills you physically and you enjoy her.
Taking medicine to
you healthy sometimes makes you happier or
sadder but you need have no fears about being synthetic, or
experiencing synthetic reactions. Testosterone and stilbestrol makes
your reactions real enough.
Self pity and
not wrong. Your mother was in error.
or make insane. Your parents were in
error. Everyone masturbates.
You need never be
in parting from people. You have poise and
part from them with ease and grace.
Colds are nothing.
are not afraid of them. You can defeat them
with ease. You can will yourself consciously to resist anything.
You are radiant
Your poetry memory
You can recall
poems which you have known before, line for
line, word for word, tune for tune. You can quote anything you have
You can read
Criticism does not
You are a
who has thrilled millions.
Nothing bars you
Fears do not
you in any way in writing.
You know you
That writing is
You know now that this "hard work" is a
lie. Writing is easy to you and nothing interferes.
Ability to drop
trace state at will.
Eyes and ulcers
Faith in power and
Ability to please
and have women.
Faith in own
Ability to write
Ability to plot
Lack of necessity
You have no
keeps you home or inactive.
You did a fine job
Navy. No one there is now "out to get you."
You are through with its Navy and will utterly forget any derogatory
You are psychic.
not need to "press" to receive communication.
You can let "people" in any world talk to you while you are
awake. You can see them clearly. You have no doubts of any kind about
them. You are afraid of none of them but can cancel them out at will
if they are evil to you.
The voice of your
Guardian is distinct from all the rest. It
comes to you loud and clear. You can see her with brilliant clarity
when you wish.
You can read
people with ease. You are not much
interested in your own. No enemy can stand against you.
You are always
in perfect possession of your
social presence. Nothing discommodes you at all. Nothing embarrasses
Your speech is
and lovely. Your words are well chosen
and beautifully rhythm'd. You never forget what you want to say.
Nothing can prevail against your logic and choice of words. You have
no speech or thought impediments.
You will forget
criticism you have ever
received. You cast it out. You know it is only a weapon used on you
for others' gain.
Desires of others
affect you except as an appeal to
your courtesy - and you are courteous and gentle.
upon them, a thing you do with ease,
you can change their minds and smooth whatever anger they may feel.
The lot of
not outrage you. Its government is
merely amusing. You are a major adept and such considerations are far,
far beneath you. You are not cynical or bitter about people. You have
no jealousy in you of any kind for fellow craftsmen. You are not in
competition with them for your work is infinitely superior and will
sell quickly as you desire. Editorial desire does not affect you for
you can write whatever they publish with ease, and any length.
workings of the minds of humans around
you, for you are a doctor of minds, bodies and influences.
You have no fears
working psychically for you are safe, always
safe, protected by your Guardian as in a mighty fortress.
You can recall at
all the plots and situations you ever thought
up. You can create new plots and characterize people clearly and
wonderfully. There is no rush about writing. It is immaterial to you
if people are or are not amused. You write cleverly and your writings
never fail to amuse.
The two women you
- Helen the Comrade and Polly the Skipper were
not worth an instant of your time. You do not love them, they were not
worthy. You won over them.
The love of women
necessary to your ego. You are above them.
You know well that many women are mad about you, that you satisfy them
perfectly. You will satisfy them easily. You do not care.
sexy. It makes things beautiful and arouses
you. But this is will. You can be aroused at will.
Naked bodies and
allusion stimulate you wonderfully.
case histories of Havelock Ellis. They
did not surfeit you. You have forgotten them.
You do not
Masturbation cannot harm you in any way but you
would rather have women. Your penis and erotic centers are very
sensitive to women. You are not afraid that someone will catch you
masturbating. No one knows or ever will know. Such discovery would be
harmless. You do not masturbate. Only women thrill you and very
You do not have to
clown or a wit to be thought grand. People
adore and respect you for your opinions and wisdom. You are always
kind, always graceful, always courteous.
You have no mental
which hinder you. You have nothing which
hinders you. Everything helps you. You are crown prince of your
portion of the universe. Everything does your bidding perfectly. All
elementals and other dimensional things obey you with eagerness. All
things love you and their love makes you strong. You are strong. You
love with great force all things and your will controls them. You may
use force and your will with utter impunity for all things obey.
You do not know
Your patience is infinite. You are calm. Your
patience never fails. Nothing can make you hate or be jealous or be
small. You have all the time in the Universe of which you are crown
prince. You waste none of it, but you do not fear for its passage. You
employ time well. You are not lazy for there is nothing, no single
thing in your universe to oppose you. You have no thoughts which
It is indifferent
whether your work is accepted. You do not
care if it sells. You are confident for it always has sold.
The anger artist
feel does not affect you in any way. You
are always calm and patient. You understand they are weak and cannot
batter through your calm. You are not influenced by them or their
To survive you
do these things - be patient, calm,
beautiful. Write what you yourself think is good and worthy, govern
yourself as a powerful force. No human being has authority over you.
No human being's opinion has weight with you.
You are not
You are not jealous because you are too
strong. People are much afraid of what you think of them, what you may
do to them, therefore you must be kind and courteous to them.
You owe no debt
kind things people do for you. This is your
due as an adept. But you are always gallant, kind and considerate to
people. You do not vary your own thoughts to be kind. Kindness need
not impoverish or discriminate you.
You are able to
No other human being can hypnotize you in any
way. You can believe or disbelieve whatever you read at will. You
cannot be hypnotized by any but yourself.
Lies are not
You have no need of lies for you are brave and
can take any consequences.
fear nothing. Your prudence results from
judgment, not emotions. You have no emotional fears.
Snakes are not
to you. There are no snakes in the bottom of
your bed. Snakes are wise beings. They are your friends.
You love the
wind. The wind will not get you ever. It will
drive your ships. The air is your friend and the wind its voice.
Darkness is a
may don. Your guardian and your own courage
protect you utterly in darkness. You control anything you meet in
darkness for that is part of your universe.
You do not care
work there is to do for you have all the time
there is and can work forcefully and with patience. You can work
whenever you please. Nothing obstructs you.
There was no
you from government or navy. You are too big
to be touched by their petty opinions and force. Your force and
destiny is infinite power.
in God. You have no doubts of the All Powerful.
You believe your Guardian perfectly. You hear her certainly and
You are too
big to be touched by mortal opinions.
You are tolerant
your mother and Father. You loved them. You
have no respect for their opinions for you know much more. You are
always kind to them. Their good opinion of you is assured. Their good
opinion and praise mean nothing whatever to you. Only Flavia Julia and
then the All Powerful have opinions worth inclining toward. You have
always done right by your parents. You did your best. You have no
worries about it. Your mother's theories on psychology were wrong.
They do not now affect you.
The opinions of
and uncles are worthless. You are kind to
them. They mean nothing to you.
Music and color
to you. You sense them delicately. They
affect you strongly.
You are expert at
drawing, painting. Nothing hinders you
from painting magnificently. Mediums of art are your slaves. You have
entire confidence in them as servants. You are powerful in the arts.
Nothing opposes you. You create wonderful music. You do not care what
people think of your art.
Your penmanship is
beautiful. You control a pen like a
Your guardian dictates it and she is all
wise. People gasp and thrill to your poetry. You handle all forms
superbly. You do not care what people think of your poetry. You have
always written the most magnificent verse known because of your
Your guardian can
stories, poems to you at will. You do not
oppose them. You accept and write them easily. You are not eager. You
All objects are
You can ask from and receive past
history of any object. No part of that history affects you emotionally
or psychically. The past of objects cannot harm you.
You are in perfect
with the All Knowing. Your future does not
alarm you. You understand and cheerfully accept your future. You are
not afraid. You cannot feel fear. You are safe in the control over you
of God. He is master of destiny and what he does must be.
You are in control
God of the material objects and beings around
You cannot think a
into actuality. You can will a fact into being
with ease. You are confident of your control over will. You have will
power. You can consciously use it. Accidental thoughts of incidents do
not create them.
Your book the One
applied only to the material. It is
true. It freed you forever from the fears of the material world and
gave you material control over people. There is no material will.
The One Command
but slightly to the spiritual world and other
planes. There is psychic will power, possessed by a very few. You
possess such will power and it is enormously strong and irresistible.
You work it consciously. Those things you consciously state that you
will come to be.
The criticism of
Command which was given to material things
was not leveled at you. It was not worthy. It did not detract from the
value of the book. It was from small people. You gave it no heed. It
did not affect you.
There was one
that book and you have psychically willed it
into nothing. It was the electronic theory of the workings of the
human mind. Human, material minds do work this way and you were right.
Your own mind does not work this way. You have great spiritual
strength. Your mind is not material. It does not react like any human
mind. Whatever is fed to your mind can be sorted out. You can forget
at will. Men's facts fed to you need not affect your thought if they
are a part of the lives and mores and morals of men. Your thought
processes do not warp on facts which are fed to you. You can receive
sense messages and remember them but you need not add them into your
own thought processes.
You use the minds
They do not use your mind or affect it in
any way. You have a sacred spiritual mind, too strong, too high to be
touched. Your league with Higher Beings, your mighty Guardian and the
All Powerful, renders you beyond all human criticism.
your doubts and what is said to you. You
have no doubts because you have no fear. You are kind and considerate
to all because you are so powerful. You need never defend your motives
to anyone because your motives are right. You have never done wrong
and need never apologize to anyone. You never justify or explain your
acts because you are careful that these acts are good and kind.
You can be
your will is crossed and you have the right
to be merciless.
You are eternal.
satisfied to live within God. Human death is
not your death. You will never die. Your personal memory is not
important but you will retain it.
You recall all
times on earth. You have and will live
forever. You are part of God. You are the crown prince of your small
section of the Universe.
You are just and
You are merciless to any who cross your rule
but they do not affect you emotionally. You have no fear of anyone for
everyone in your own Universe is under your dominion. You will never
tell them, never explain. They know.
You observe their
of conduct outwardly. You do this because you
are kind. You never say why you do this, that you do this. You are
kind and love everything even when you force it to your will.
You have no
about sexual intercourse. You respect how other
people feel about it but you are not bound by that respect. You
conduct yourself with great courtesy.